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KRISTIN DARE (Self-Titled) Click "LISTEN" to hear an excerpt of the song.
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In My Mind I know that we agreed that we would not see each other anymore. We're like oil and water. I know the saying goes that when you are out of sight, you're out of mind. That has not been true. That has not been true with you. I can see you in my mind. I can see you in my mind. Your face is over me like a haunting image on a movie screen. With eyes that pierce right through me. I imagine us and you hold me close and kiss me tenderly. But it's all a dream. And it's stuck in my reality. I know that we agreed and I won't see you anymore. But there's a problem. . . KRISTIN'S NOTES: We wrote this song almost entirely as a band. I had the chorus and a lyrical idea and we wrote the rest during a rehearsal. I wanted to portray that feeling of wanting to forget someone, but not being able to. BACK TO TOP You You hurt me when we talked on the phone. Words went deeper than any stone. When you make me cry, what goes through your mind? Are you just walking down yourself avenue? I need you to be conscious of me. You seem to forget all that you see. Look me in the eye and tell me why The purpose of your life is caring for you. I can't make you see me. I can't make you try. You drink you. You sleep you. You think you. You'll keep you. You drink you. You sleep you. You think you. You'll keep you. My mind says, "Run so fast. You've got to get away." My heart says, "You can last and he might change someday." I don't know what to choose. Either way I lose You or my own dignity. KRISTIN'S NOTES: Tim Horsley wrote most of the music for this song - the form of the song. I just happened to walk through the room while he was working on it. I said, "Oh, I like that a lot. Let me mess with a melody." I wrote the melody and lyrics pretty much at the same time. Then Tim said, "This song isn't about me, is it?" Ha ha. I like the intervals in the verses especially. BACK TO TOP Alright Dark clouds are following me. The world is a stranger today. This is me without you. I could use you by my side. Tell me things about you. Tell me that you'll love me tonight. I can spend the day with you And you can make me feel it's all right. All right. You can kiss my blues away. I'll tell you where it hurts And you can say it's all right. You're pills and posy to me. I need to have you every day. Can you be for sale? Can I put you in a box? Take you everywhere? Just in case I'm needing some hope. You can make a smile from a frown. You can turn that thing upside down. Don't you know what your presence Does to me? KRISTIN'S NOTES: Tim Calhoun and Mark Hoffman wrote the music for this one. I wrote the words and had fun playing with the idea of a relationship being kind of a fix. BACK TO TOP Either Way We can talk without talking and waste both our time Or we can sit here in silence pretending we're fine. We can point all our fingers 'till no one's to blame Or we can make declarations of how we will change. Either way I'm still loving you. Either way I'm still here for you. Either way I'm accepting you. Either way. We can be in this prison and write on the walls Or we can cherish the freedom of having it all. We can pour out our feelings in reason and rhyme Or we can hinder our healing and never know why. I will take you hand even when I don't understand you. We can live without trying and watch it go by Or we can see that we're dying and hope to survive. Either way I'm still loving you. Either way I will want for you. Either way I'm forgiving you. Either way. Either way I will run to you. Either way I will carry you. Either way I'm still loving you. Either way I'm still loving you. Either way I'm still loving you. Either way. KRISTIN'S NOTES: This song was written after a phone conversation with my brother. I wanted to express how I felt at the time, about that conversation, about him. I liked the feel of the chorus in 6/8 and the verses in 4/4. So that's how we did it. BACK TO TOP Falling Friday night I went to a party, but I wasn't havin' any fun. So I stood up and said, "Hey, I'm leaving." And I walked out the door and ran into you. And I knew that I'd been had. I knew that I was lost. I knew I had to stay there to be next to you. Oh, I'd been had. I knew that I was lost. I knew I had to stay there to be next to you. Should I believe that I would fall so hard? It's impetuous of me. To give myself away to this feeling I wasn't sure that it was wise. Then I looked into your eyes. KRISTIN'S NOTES: This song was written out of spite. A good friend told me I was writing too many serious songs. So, I thought of some music and sang the words "Friday night I went to a party?" and the rest came very quickly. I liked the idea of the girl in the song being taken by surprise or being had by fate. BACK TO TOP On and On I never wanted to make you feel bad. I never wanted to make you feel sad. All I wanted was to help myself out. And that meant leaving. I'm sorry that meant leaving. You look so beautiful when you cry now. You are so beautiful as I wave goodbye now. I needed, I needed to fly. And that meant leaving. On and on. Holding on. I thought that we would keep it together somehow. But on and on I was wrong. And I think that I will take it from here now. I never wanted to break your heart. You see it was between you and me. And I wanted mine back. I never wanted to be on my own. Yet, here I'm leaving. Did you think that I would put up with your lies? Did you think that I would say to you, "Alright?" Did you think I'd just go KRISTIN'S NOTES: I like the melancholy of this song. I was in that kind of mood when writing. The girl in the song seems so sad to be leaving. You don't find out she has a reason to leave until the bridge. BACK TO TOP Find My Name Streamers and balloons and little white flowers haunt the memories. How I could make you laugh and I could make you smile and inside be dying. Girls running to and from the truth and the days to come. I learned my part well. Then I grew up and I moved and I met some people who asked me who I was. And I couldn't find my name. I'd lost it somewhere between 10 and 23. I couldn't find my name. Though I know it's here somewhere. Pickles and pizza and manipulation some things are hard to lose. Habits are hard and habits are a source of comfort when you're lonely and confused. But I've got to go I've got to run. I'm heading for the sun and He will call me near. Aunt Jennie just turned 84 and she loves her life so much more than when she was 25. She walks her dog and laughs a lot and encouraged me to take a shot and see. KRISTIN'S NOTES: This is by far the most personal song on the record. I wasn't even going to bring this one to the band, but I thought it was so pretty that I couldn't help it. I wanted just the bass and me from the intro and into the first half of the first verse. When I said this during rehearsal, the guitar player and drummer said "What?! Just the bass???" Joel the bass player was thinking, "It's about time!" BACK TO TOP Change She was wondering if you would take her in to your lair of pleasure and pain. She can hardly wait to participate in the latest game of illusion. Change will say to wait until tomorrow. And it takes forever and a day. And now she will never frown. She can't bear to feel any little thing. But peace of mind is hard to find when you've left behind your reason. She'll be okay it just takes time. She'll be okay she'll change her mind. KRISTIN'S NOTES: This song is about a girl's relationship with drugs. I've found it can relate to a lot of things, however. BACK TO TOP Forgive Me Please forgive me if I'm happy. I can't stop it anymore. I've given myself over to my fear. And it's not as bad as my imagination So I'm not afraid anymore. All my life I've been told Not to be afraid. "Don't you be afraid." Time and time again. Well, I heard it enough To wonder what everyone was so afraid of. So I slid out from under The safety of my covers To find there was nothing there. KRISTIN'S NOTES: This song has no normal form and that's one of the things I like about it. I get tired of the formula, you know? It's about following through with the desire to go your own way - against the anxiety of yourself and others, then finding that there really was nothing to fear. BACK TO TOP Justice I was living. I was dying. I was everywhere. I was walking. I was flying. I was everywhere. Oh, but I had hope. I had hope. To bring honesty and leave peacefully. I would give all I had to tell everybody. Seek and you'll find what's real and what's right. They did what they wanted to but I would try. I was sound and I was silence. I was everywhere. I was leaning out of balance. I was everywhere. You fought for me and I had hope. You fought for me and I had hope. KRISTIN'S NOTES: I pictured the woman with the blindfold holding the scales of justice. It's written from the point of view that justice is dead. BACK TO TOP |